Show me your achievement

September 3, 2007 by redandgreycard

A very close friend sent me this quote last week which is now on my desktop.

Just go as far as you can go, from there you can see farther. Don’t work for my happiness—show me yours—show me that it is possible—show me your achievement—and the knowledge will give me courage for mine.

—Ayn Rand

Very few people in your life can make you feel like this. In my life there’s only person, Natasha. She pushes me and makes me believe in what I can achieve. And her life is a living example of her achievement.

As we grow older, our sense of adventure and risk slowly starts eroding. People bring you down. Society loves to dictate your life. You have to play your roles—son, brother, daughter, wife, boyfriend, etc. And by the time we realise, which by then is very late, we have forgotten to be ourselves and our dreams. We are just busy accepting reality without pushing the limits of our reality. We tend to settle in the boat that we built, failing to realise that we can build even bigger boats.

I am fortunate to have friends who push me to build bigger boats. And I am proud that I have chosen them as family. As Natasha would always tell me, ‘the world is your oyster’.

It doesn’t take an Einstein for this…

September 3, 2007 by redandgreycard

Love + irrationality = pain

Blue

August 14, 2007 by redandgreycard

Dejected face, heavy heart
the color blue takes over

Hope

July 21, 2007 by redandgreycard

I had a private moment with one of my best friends who will be going to the States in another two months to do her masters. She’s someone I respect and admire; a great achiever for her age and an amazing person. She always knows what I’m feeling and I don’t have to try hard to explain to her what I’m feeling. She just knows it, and she somehow knows my deepest innermost dreams and that too very accurately. I respect her tremendously and I love her to death. She was the one who first saw my photographs and pushed me to pursue it. And if that was a lot, she also gifted me an SLR for my birthday.

So ya, I was on the bike with her, looking for a cab to dump her stuff in since she was leaving for Pune. And in those few minutes, she told me that I’ll do well in life and that I’ll travel. She said that she can see the burning zeal in me to travel and that she could feel that longing. She said I will travel and I will make money, and I know I will. Somehow after that short conversation, I was glimmering with hope and was reliving my almost buried dreams. She gave me the strength to hope and the gift of determination. Many paths of my life have been charted thanks to her. She’s been my role model and protector. It’s amazing to have someone like that in your life. I wish her the best in life.

Thursday night in Reclamation

June 4, 2007 by redandgreycard

Sitting in an old premier padmini cab with an even older old man driver, i left for Borivli from bandra at 2 in the morning. I was riding a cab because I had to shift some stuff from natasha’s place in Reclamation to home in Borivli. Cruising along Reclamation was one the most beautiful rides I had had in a long time, with the night sea in view from my right window. Bombay was asleep and I was drowsy. Yet, I couldn’t look away from the illuminated buildings across the sea which stood there tall and elegant. WIth just the breeze slapping my face, I felt a certain silence, that which is extinct in this city. Just then it started to rain, not heavily, and I started to smile. I realized I was simply happy.  

Capitalism

April 28, 2007 by redandgreycard

I came across this interesting article through Jerry’s blog; the article was making a moral case for capitalism. Anybody who seeks to know what capitalism really entails or has anti-capitalist sentiments on irrational grounds should read this article. I have been reading a lot of Ayn Rand’s works and i must say that her take on capitalism being the correct politico-economic system is by all means a correct belief, not by whim, but by reason.

These are the most frequent questions that anti-capitalists or skeptics of capitalism ask me: (1) Don’t the poor deserve healthcare, education, and reservations in universities and in the private sector? (socialists) (2) How can one be completely selfish as to think of making profits and not distributing their profits to those in need? (altruists) (3) What will happen to the environment because capitalism encourages the destruction of the earth and causes pollution? (environmentalists) Obviously, there are many more questions that I come across from different people, but these are the most frequently asked.

In my answer to the first question, there is a clarification to be made. The clarification is that historically poverty is not a direct consequence of capitalism, but that evils like injustice, force, fraud, and sometimes laziness lead to poverty. Take the example of the slums in Bombay. The activist would claim that because of capitalism, industries forcefully evict people from their lands because these people, originally farmers or tribals, cannot defend themselves because they don’t have legal deeds to their land or that the industries use force to evict them. They maintain that basic human rights are not respected and that this is a direct consequence of capitalism. This standpoint is not only false but also misguided. For one, in India, the individual’s right to liberty is only on paper written in some feeble page in the Indian constitution. Second, our courts and government do not serve the purpose of protecting the individual’s right to liberty and property. Thus, when the rule of law is replaced by the whims of the majority and the right to liberty is nothing but a mere concept, the reason for the sorry state of the slums is not capitalism but the evils of a corrupt government that does not recognize the right to property. And if this right is violated, the farmers or tribals can’t look to the law and order system for justice because the courts are either too clustered with work or they are so corrupt that the decisions made in these cases are biased and unprincipled.

My answer to the second question is an excerpt taken from an article that I hyperlinked earlier:

Doesn’t everyone deserve an education, health care, and a basic income? Isn’t it unjust that some people get wealthy while others have little? Shouldn’t we aim for a system that empowers the government to remedy such disparities?

Capitalism answers: no. There is only one alternative to the capitalist model of voluntary interaction–force. Every government policy that grants entitlements to some citizens does so, and must do so, by violating the freedom of others. To entitle citizens to things like education, health care, or public transportation necessarily requires forcing someone to teach or treat or drive, or forcing someone else (the taxpayers) to pay. In other words, to establish the “right” to education or health care is to establish the “right” to the time, energy, and wealth of those who must supply such benefits. When America’s Founding Fathers spoke of the right to the pursuit of happiness, rather than the right to happiness itself, they recognized that one is rightfully entitled only to what he earns or gains by voluntary consent from others–success and happiness are to be sought and earned, not expropriated from others by force. In this sense, no one is “left behind” under capitalism: every individual has the same unrestricted freedom to pursue what he needs and wants.

Criticism of capitalism stems from the ethical ideal of altruism, the idea that morality consists of sacrificing for those in need. To selfishly pursue one’s own ends, on this view, is to shirk one’s moral duty to others. Capitalism rebuffs this notion by upholding and protecting each individual’s right to act in his own interests, in opposition to those who demand he sacrifice his time, effort, wealth and happiness for others. The altruist morality is inherently anti-capitalist because its implementation in politics requires the violation of freedom. Those who choose not to voluntarily sacrifice their interests for others must be forced to do so.

The third question was regarding the environmentalist’s concern that capitalism is anti-earth. Most environmentalists place earth before man. They regard industrial activity as immoral because it pollutes and believe that it will ultimately cause the earth’s destruction. While it is industrial production that has improved the standard of living and technology that has resulted in the eradication of many diseases thus creating longevity, they believe that capitalism, which supports industrial production, is hurting or destroying our “sacred earth.” Little are they concerned about the flourishing of humans. First of all, capitalism propounds the right to property and that humans are free to do whatsoever they choose to on their own property even if it is polluting their property. But if the actions of a person in his own property amount to violating another individual’s right to liberty and property, that person must be punished. For example, the Coca Cola factory was shut down in Kerala because they were releasing effluents in the river that was a source of drinking water to the villagers in the areas near the factory. Coca Cola thus was impinging on the villager’s right to survive and they were fully aware of this fact. Their shutting down by the government was justified since the rights of the individual were protected.

Further, humans have the right to the pursuit of happiness. And a large part of this happiness depends on the use of earth’s natural resources. If these resources when completely depleted could lead to the self-destruction of humans, then they should work to protect these resources, not because earth is sacred but because its preservation is necessary for the survival of humans. In other words, we should preserve our natural resources only if their depletion would adversely affect human life. That is let us work to preserve earth to preserve ourselves, not to preserve earth for itself. If respiratory diseases such as asthma are a consequence of the pollutants emitted by cars and industries, humans should work to make more fuel efficient cars and industries should make their processes better so as to decrease pollution. Being an asthmatic myself with pollution as its cause, I would still respect the man who strives to reduce harmful emissions through technology and innovation rather than someone who holds on to a tree to prevent it from getting cut for a highway project on the grounds that trees help in reducing pollution.

As quoted by Ayn Rand, capitalism is indeed the unknown ideal.

Last days in Cactus

April 24, 2007 by redandgreycard

Last few days here at work. No motivation and no incentive: I just can’t work. I’m just dragging myself through these days. If it weren’t for my close friends, I couldn’t have made it through these days. I’m going to start work at the new office in like a week’s time.  

I have to admit that I’m scared: new people, new place, and different work. I’ll start off with almost no stake and that’s a scary thought. Also it’s the fear that people may not take to you or that you may not like the people there. But what the hell! I have to face it. Even though I’m mentally prepared for the change, emotionally I’m not. I’m going to miss Sonja and all my friends. I worry if I’ll ever have the same amount of independence in another office, but then, I would never know until I start there. 

My new office is quite a long commute and i decided to buy myself a bike to steer through the insane traffic of the western express highway. And in the bargain of buying it, I’m completely broke. And i mean broke! After I made the down payment for the bike, I came home with just Rs. 6 in my pocket. I was so sad that I started laughing at my situation. Having no money in my pocket reminded of my college days where I’d have exhausted my pocket money by the end of the third week. To think that I could survive those days is reassuring.   

I don’t want my last day to come as much as I feel the urgency to leave. 

Untalented

March 26, 2007 by redandgreycard

‘Humans are not born equal.’ I’ve read this several times in many texts but today I realized and felt it. My close friend is a computer genius. Another friend today was telling me that she has sent some of her poetry to publishing houses seeking publication. Another friend is a brilliant artist, another an amazing singer.  I thought to myself: I have no distinct strong talent.

I am merely a mediocre writer, bland poet, film critic, and amateur photographer. I am very perceptive when it comes to people, and babies take to me easily. I can’t, however, think of one or more unique talent that sets me apart. I possess many like a jack of all trades. The realization of being average was making me sad. 

However, I still consider myself successful in my career, but I don’t attribute it to any talent. I can say that I can attribute it only to my *urgency* to survive given my circumstances. I have to earn money and I have to make it quick. And very early in my job I realized that it’s not enough to only work hard but work smart as well. I started to learn the principles of business and enhanced my skill, and I used my perception and deep understanding of human nature to succeed. I understood the associations and networks humans make in order to succeed, and I used this understanding—to an extent that my values permitted me to—to make me successful in my work.  But there wasn’t any talent contributing to this; it was just my knowledge and eagerness to learn. The economics of a business, the science of increasing profits, and the fine art of politics were some of the realisms I learnt and am learning. My efficacy therefore I attribute to my intelligence and knowledge, not to any talent.  

Having said all of this, I am happy, I have a beautiful lover who I care most deeply about, I have lovely genuine friends who have a huge stake in my happiness, I am constantly meeting intellectually interesting people, I have a nice place to live, I have my own space. I am happy. I have no talent, but it makes no big difference. I can still gain and make the best out of life. I am enjoying the pleasures that I earn. What is important therefore is that life is worth living and that I make it worth living.